Am I giving up...?

I think I am, and I hate it...

Dust...

We keep on striving
trying
dying to be the best
why? 
for what?

We're noting

just a pointless dot in space

just a simple note on an endless scale...

We think of ourselves as the kings of this universe
when truthfully...
we're nothing...

"Just a small particle of dust..."

I’m scared of b r e a k i n g your heart

Such a fragile and gentle heart...

I’m scared of hurting you

I fear that I’ve already caused you to shed tears because of me

I fear that deep inside your heart you already despise me…

I’m scared, my love…

If I ever hurt you, I'm sorry

If I ever cause you pain, I'm sorry

How can I live with the expectations of everyone

Without b r e a k i n g your heart…

How am I supposed to l i v e without those starry eyes

How am I supposed to live in this starless night?

How am I supposed to live w i t h o u t you?

H o w  a m  I  s u p p o s e d  t o . . .  ? 

Dear Pain...

What is this feeling?

It’s so familiar…

My long forgotten friend…

Bittersweet pain…

Where have you been hiding?

I thought I had locked you up deep in my heart

I thought I had forgotten this feeling…

Guess I was wrong…

Him...

It's him

And I'll keep fighting for this...

for us...