Wondering...

Sometimes I wonder...
who would I be if I never left?
Would I still be that naive girl that I was back then?
would I know the difference between truth and lies, dreams and reality...?
Would I still be watching that beautiful sunset while I hold that pencil, writing poems and prophecies...?
Would I be strong?
Or weak?

Would I be left forever alone?
Or was there any opportunity of that childish love to be able to bloom...?
Would I keep writing?
Would I still be trapped in a world of dreams and illusions?

Would I still cry under the starless night?
Would I pray to god every time I saw that beautiful blue sky...?

Sometimes I wonder...
what could have happened if I said 'no'
Would I end up loosing my mind?
was it already written somewhere that I had to end up being like this?

Would I be brave enough to stand up for my self?
Or would I still be that little shy girl...?

Would I be able to carry the burden and pain of her for the rest of my life?
Would I lose her?

Who would I be if I never left...?

I miss them...

And I thought that I couldn't lose nothing...

Guess I was wrong.